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Hello, this is Alexa and this is a short story of how I lost a business opportunity/deal, due to being pissed over little issue.

   while growing up, I was prone to anger and  at that I wasn't used to cracking and making up jokes cause my child hood friends were scared that I will take it to heart. 
 In my primary school days, I was involved in a fight with a female student ( my classmate), I beat this girl to pulp, like I beat the heck out of her. feed her with the grass and sand. During my secondary school days; I angrily cut down my new dress all because my sister wore it to church without asking for my approval and I stood no chance of getting a Christmas dress that year. 

Fast forward, I got admission to study History and international studies in Akwa ibom state university, Ata obio akpa, uruk Anam local government area. Mum called me in for some words; anger will lead me to the path of pain where I will long tread with the arrows of regrets tearing me down through my spine. Anger will make me loss a lot of good things. which I never took that particular advice serious, I responded, okay mummy I really appreciate this nugget but I am so sure that I don't get angry on purpose, that I'll be careful to avoid someone getting on my nerves. My anger isn't about hurting anyone, I don't break things, I assured them. Dad said calmly, Bi my lovely daughter I know you don't do bad things when pissed but it will rob you of good and valuable things. you know I love you so much and I really want the best for your growth; that I should really tame my anger. I shouldn't chase my partner away because of my anger issues. in that no man wants and can't condole too much anger issues, that I should put in my very best to make a change .

At that point I had to obey my dad's instructions, okay Daddie, thanks much.

Truth be told, my early days in the four walls of the university, I lost so many things. Amongst this I lost a good relationship. Hmm I am so speechless though.

  In my year three, going for the long break, while on transit, got a glance of a young man having a long gaze in my direction. I was like, hi there, good evening. what's up with the stare ke I'm getting scared tho. 

Hi, I am Gilbert by name, sorry for the stares just that I can't just fix my face to another direction I'm just glued to your appearance.

lol, I responded with a smile. okay I am Alexa apology accepted

you're looking so alluring and very beautiful, you're so complete in that if a man should have you, he won't be able to go outside nor have any one else, he added

I laughed tho cause Inwardly I knew what I was battling with . Thanks much for complimenting, I really appreciate your kind words, my response to him. we had a good conversation in the bus, he was like I wanna keep talking to you so he got my contact. The bus got to my destination, I alighted and baded him bye

That nights, grown into days and weeks in much that we bonded so quick. On this good day he asked me for my business proposal that he will love to support me of which I quickly draft it out, send it to him. He was like wow, wow, wow that it is actually a good and impressive proposal I got that in the next few years , my business brand will be global. 

A text came in the next day, hey Bi dress up I wanna take you on a date .okay since I had nothing doing I quickly showered, dressed up , compleleted my dress with my smile.

I got to the destination 20mins to the agreed time cause I love doing things in prior to the said time. I reached out to my phone, texted him that I'm at the location.

Waited for him for like an hour plus, damn whats this ni, I was getting pissed cause I don't like lateness, if something should have come up he should have at least texted me ni, so I thought.

okay, there he comes, sat down I was expecting a sorry from him tho but nothing was said, I got up, looking so pissed, told him things that are demeaning in that he isn't accountable nor responsible, like I wasn't just thinking straight for real. I walked out of him, took a cab home.

Bibi, you were tested and obviously you didn't pass the test which was set up my my company. But I just prove to him that I can't be trusted if I'm battling with anger. That I've lost out in the benefits from the company. I broke down in tears, anger again making me loss of in this opportunity, oh God I need help.
since that day I've been in the path of regrets, trying to right my wrong.

One thing I noticed from anger is that; it's a virus that tends to fed on the host, get what it's desire and leave the host to wallow in the poll of pains and regrets.

I don't want to get infected with this virus again I told myself, intentionally, I started working on my self with the help of God, parent, sibling, friends. which now I can boldy say I rarely get pissed. it wasn't easy but God helped me.

Tips that helped me;
~ God, reading his word, telling him to help me
~ Not saying a word without thinking
~ Not making a fast decision when angry
~ Reading books, attending seminars, Getting myself busy with stuffs

A minute of anger can ruin you, learn to think before you talk, react, act.