HiveComb

People always say that there is time for everything but most times, I feel like they don't really understand it. It's either that or they do understand but choose to ignore.

As Africans, we tend to not really pay attention to mental health, depression and all that until something bad happens to that person and then we blame it on witchcraft and village people, which is very bad because mental health issues are real and should be taken seriously.

Earlier this morning I had woken up feeling down, just like I've been feeling for about a week now. So I just laid on my bed with no motivation to get up or do anything at all. Suddenly my phone began to ring and it was my brother calling.

He does this thing where he would randomly call just to say hi and check up on me and we'd catch up with the latest things happening in our lives, blah blah blah. Well, when he called today, I obviously wasn't in my right state of mind but I had answered the call regardless.

We started talking about something that I've been working on that hasn't exactly been going my way and instead of him to take a clue from my tone and from the fact that I had earlier told him that I wasn't feeling too well due to the fact that it feels like everything is working against me, he began to lay blaims on me about certain things that I had done wrong, things I had earlier taken responsibility for and admitted that I messed up.

It was like he decided to remind me of my past mistakes for no reason because they weren't going to impact positively in my life at the moment because what has happened has happened and I had acknowledged that I messed up.

At that point, all I needed was for someone to lift my spirit and not bring me down more, which exactly was what he was doing. He ended up hanging up after he realized my voice was beginning to sound rude and he didn't want me to be rude to him, but then the damage had already been done...and I won't lie to you, after that call, I felt a lot worse than I did when I first woke up that morning.

I began to think of crazy things that I can't even say here because I'm ashamed of myself of thinking of those hurtful things to do to myself..yes that's right, I wanted to hurt myself. Luckily for me, I was able to get myself under control and left my room to go sit outside so that I could get my mind off it and calm down a bit.

People need to realise there's time for everything, a time to blaim someone, a time to support someone, a time to encourage someone, a time to let someone be, because you just might save a life or end one, it all depends on how well you read the situation.