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Today is the Night of Power.
This night seems different to me than any other night. Not much changes around me, but what changes inside my heart. Today, I feel like Allah is very close. Even if I am silent today, He will understand what I want to say.

I cannot pray very well. Many times, I cannot find the right words. But this night, I am not afraid of that. Because Allah does not only listen to what is said, He also sees the state of the heart. And today, there is a lot of things accumulated in my heart.

Today, when I sit down to pray, I stop for a while. I think about my life. Where I was right, where I made a mistake, where I did not say anything even though I was in great pain—it all comes to mind. People do not understand many things, but Allah knows everything. Just thinking about this makes my heart a little lighter.

This night, I pray for my tired heart. I try to be strong many times. Even though I seem to be fine from the outside, I break down inside. I cannot convince anyone, I just endure it. Today, I say to Allah—Oh Allah, I am tired. Give me some peace.

I ask for forgiveness for my mistakes. There are many mistakes that I have made consciously. And there are also mistakes that I did not realize. Sometimes I have hurt someone with my words, sometimes I have hurt them silently. Today I ask Allah for forgiveness for everything. Because whether people forgive or not, Allah's forgiveness is the most important thing.

In today's prayer, I do not think only about myself. I think about those people who are very sad inside. Who cannot tell anyone. Who cry at night, laugh during the day. O Allah, you see their suffering. Do not leave them alone.

I also pray for my future. I do not ask for anything too big. I just want - that I do not go the wrong way. That I do not lose trust in you when I am in trouble. That I do not forget you when good times come. That I can remember you at all times in life.

On the night of Shab-e-Qadr, I want my mind to be clear. That there is not too much anger, that there is not too much jealousy, that there is not too much complaining. I am human, I will make mistakes - but that I do not lose kindness.

On this night, I hand over my worries to Allah. Fear of the future, worries about money, relationship troubles—all of them. Because I know that everything is not in my hands. And what is not in my hands is safest in Allah's hands.

This night reminds me—I am not alone. There is someone who hears all my unspoken words. There is someone who sees all my tears. This faith is what makes me strong.

O Allah, do not send me back empty-handed on this holy night. If my prayers are not said properly, you understand what is in my heart. If tears do not come to my eyes, you see the burden on my chest.

This night is an opportunity for me to start anew.

The Night of Power—the Night of Trust.

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